daddy's little girl.
how i wish i could speak to someone about it. i once did and i learnt the hard way that i should choose people wisely because the news came back to my ears in one full circle. sad. i thought i could lean on you. gossip is such a bitter-sweet thing. making your parents proud when you step on stage to receive your diploma is also another bitter-sweet thing. thanks dad.
sigh, hwee tze... why... i felt so lost when we parted earlier on. stupid bus, why did you have to come so early? oh well, at least we now have the same pair of shoe to remind us of each other. guess what tania? that pair of shoes which i just bought was the LAST pair too! why do we always meet up with such 'luck'? (oops, sorry bud, the more i look at it the more i think it aint the same design as yours. i reckon thats a good thing. HA)
next...
the following might be 'liberating' to some people out there who happen to pass my blog and read it.
He's just aint into you.
yup, i was watching an episode of the oprah winfrey show and the guest speaker was an author of a book for women who just cannot see the light to a bad relationship.
i cant believe this. i actually cried when i saw women pouring out their woes to the author, asking him for help and have reality slap them in their pretty faces.
the main question was :is he interested in me because he is such a wonderful/good/nice blah blah blah blah blah guy to me but he dosen't call me blah blah blah blah(the list goes on)
the only answer that ever came out of that author's mouth: NO. a big fat simple yet hurtful NO.
the response: women who can't handle the TRUTH and start tearing in front of the camera.
oh gosh... why was i crying at that moment too when the host said: 'the TRUTH HURTS!'?
and i rememeber saying 'yah it freaking hurts' and quickly grab hold of the couch.
argh. damn. i knew it was time to 'let you go' and so i did. (i can imagine tania raising her eyebrows and saying, YOU STILL LIKE HIM TILL NOW?) anymore hurt inside? well, maybe not. totally not unless im some robot. well i knew it was reality. at least it was comforting to know that you arent the only one crying over someone. damn. thank God for oprah winfrey!
but girls, lets face it..if a guy ISNT interested in you, PLEASE, don't keep on bugging him! because he aint gona tell it in your face...he just wanna avoid futher embarrassment. i learnt the hard way. i'm not licking my wounds now, i'm just looking at them. it has been quite a while since i last saw you. i'm moving on and i even changed my guitar's name to something even BETTER. because i'm a survivor. im not gona be some wimpy person who is gona 'wait by the phone till he calls' and 'asks countless times of ridiculus questions' when the answer is so OBVIOUS. I'm gona be someone GREATER. amen to that!
HALLELUJAH!
