time to come clean

confession? obligations? everything is inside.
dying to tell you.
holding back to avoid being asked why.
i was trying my hardest to tell you.
perharps you were the hardest to tell.
it was because of the dates.
the dates were too near to each other.
i couldnt find a way to say.
i dont know how u know.
u're pissed and i'm well..speechless.
not that i didnt wanna say.
how to say when u told me about ur bday celebrations MTHS ago?
not that u tell me about it few days ago. Hi! it was MONTHS.
how to say that im leaving BEFORE your bday celebration?
if things were ever simple.
i'd say life is good.
the dates have changed to the 10th.
i battled with myself.
try being in my shoes.
it is hard.
if you're still pissed at me,
i'm sorry.
i just couldnt bring myself to tell u and the rest the truth.
if you're wondering if i did make an effort to try coming to your bday chalet,
well let me tell you, i did.
but until now i have no accomodation over in sydney.
i'm sorry, i have to leave earlier.
changing the dates to the 10th was the last thing i wanted to do.
still pissed?
what can i say?

sorry.