Welcome back grace, to the world of public blogs. to a world whereby everything aint about 'me myself and i'. bye bye world filled with emptyness and looking around only to swallow yourself in selfpity. [eeew, pathetic.]

so here's a lowdown on what happened:

- home's like ww3 ground for the past few weeks.
- i've been put down till i cannot lift my head and face the world. but i've learnt to value self worth. halleujah! thank YOU.
- far away by nickelback and ironic by alanis m. were my comfort songs when i was down
- river grace was formed in the process
- one day, i went for service and cell.
- the end product ==> transformed

praise the Lord.

i'll be more open. i'll not shut the world out.

things i've learnt:

1. communication
2. be interested in people's world
3. make people feel important
4. smile
5. encourage
6. be longsuffering
7. use people's names more often
8. compliment
9. respect people

10. esteem people as better as yourself

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i'll meditate like never before. i'll get back into my baby christ mode when jealousy and envy were almost erased from my dictionary. im not perfect so sometimes such feelings linger.

BUT, u really 'killed' me when you left. frankly, i wanted to take a good grip on you and shake u real hard for going. i'll probably freak if your reply was that i did not sms to ask. (excuse me? but i did call and ask!) the old grace re-emerged when news broke. no matter how much i think abt the verse, i'll go bitter. i go bitter at almost anything. i pray God give me longsuffering to meditate like never before.

i suppose the only reason was because i loved (and still do) you. i wonder if the words 'good buds' (no reference to the other one) mean anything to you? or how we spent the night at your house munching chips and talk till freaking 5am? or how you always come by with chocolates esp 'special chocolates'.

yup, so you can tell that i was CRUSHED.

but i learnt an important lesson today:

dont nurse it, dun rehearse it, dun attack it. disperse it and let God reverse it.

well. im not all perfect. so, i can never be corrected in within a few minutes. so please Lord, guide me.

(thank God im making progress)

forgive me of my sins. do not forsake me.

i can never be perfect. i try to improve in one area only to neglect another area.

spoke to 2 aunties (total strangers) and talked about shopping and breakfast. lol. one was waiting for a fren while the other just came back from mlysia with lots of shopping bags. i'll make progress man.

amen!

p.s Hwee, i miss you! =)