to re-open or not to re-open? i suppose the answer should be 'no'. unless i 'clean' up this blog cuz there are some things which are between me and Him. too personal and sometimes a tad vulgar. lol. anyways. prayer meeting is tonight and i choose not to go cuz frankly speaking im not really into such things. God forgive me once more. sigh.
anyway. today bud said that he had 6 invites to val day. immediately i tot of how pathetic mine was. i couldnt care less and only wanted hwee with me sipping coffee and talk about stuffs. we always encourage each other in such stuffs. she knows me and i know her well. we both need each other in such problems. we both had our likings and we had our hard times with love. i love her and i'll be happy for her when she calls me and tells me she finally has a bf. when the time comes, it shall be only me and God. amen! i dont want such stuffs in my life. bgrs are a bane in my life and no matter how sweet tanya tries to make this whole issue seem like some dream that i must live it once, i shall continue with this boy-forsaken life. amen! and cheers to that!!
i miss hwee. in a few weeks time i shall be graduating soon and i'm gona miss all my classmates and although i DO WANT THAT JOB AT THE CLINIC, (dear God, can you hear me call??) i hope that i can grad from this place with a nice cert. at least a nice cert will do me well. anyway. that job at the clinic sounds fun and i do hope that i can get it and that i can get into a uni after that cuz joanne once told me that even with a diploma, i'll come to a stage where a diploma can never get me anywhere. only a degree can give u a promotion or a higher ranking. so i gta bare that in mind. anyway. well, i'll miss everyone. i'll miss the sch, i'll miss the hangouts. i'll miss everybody. i know one person who cannot get his life outta here and go and do his guitar thing. cannot blame him either. he is too into such things. its sad that he wont miss the time all of us spent here. or does bud not? hmmm.. the impresssion he gives me is that he only wants his guitar. well i know what i want. i want to enjoy every moment here in sch. cuz it is until 28 feb. the countdown has begun!
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ok i shall cut short my blog here. i nd to do some work in here. argh.....
Lord, i love You!!
grace.
*just breathe grace, breathe....*
